Read an article on Oppenheimer and the Bhagavad Gita yesterday, which led to me roaming the house trying to find my copy of the Upanishads. The database said it was in the Poetry section, but I knew that wasn’t right since it belongs in Reference. My cataloguing is just as idiosyncratic as my shelving, apparently.
After wandering about a bit and even checking downstairs (though I knew it couldn’t be there) I finally found it–in Reference, yes, but at the end of a shelf where it had no business being. I didn’t remember putting it there, though I manifestly did so–unless the resident pixie has taken to arranging books, in which case we’ll need to have a chat. Other things in the house can be moved about in this fashion, but please, not the damn books.
Not much drives me as bonkers as not being able to find a volume I know without a doubt is in my library. This clearly stems from childhood, when I would come home from school or other obligations to find adult caregivers had taken my books and ripped them to shreds, thrown them away, or other things of the sort. They knew books were important to me, and gained narcissistic supply from the torment.
Moving out and finding spaces where my books were safe was an absolute revelation. Nowadays I can leave a volume on the kitchen counter, on the couch–hell, I can stack them on the stairs if I want, and nobody will bother them. At least, not without asking, “Hey, this stuff is in the way, can we put it elsewhere?” (Or the pixie will move them according to its own strange sense of “helpfulness”.)
Of course, I could have thought I was going to put this particular volume in the Poetry section, but suffered an attack of good sense upon realizing it needed to be handy for reference as well as anchoring during difficult working days. That’s entirely possible as well; I shouldn’t blame the pixie without proof. It’s enough that I found the damn thing after a mere half-hour of roaming the house touching shelves and spines.
Anyway, this morning I read a little while my sunrise clock gathered strength and Boxnoggin snored wetly against my shoulder. He tends to greet morning with his nose shoved as close as he can get, the precise location depending on how insistent he is during dreaming; I’m sure he would prefer my neck like Odd Trundles used to do as a puppy, but I prefer not, thank you Bartleby. Armpit is bad enough, shoulder is disconcerting but relatively reasonable.
A big hairy, snorting toddler burbling into one’s axillary section is comforting, sure, but it’s also exceedingly damp.
There’s the last quarter of Riversinger and Minnowsharp to revise today, and that’ll be the first pass sorted. The second pass will be the interweaving of lore at the head of every chapter, which will be fun. I’m glad I reserved that particular bit in order to take the sting from this particular go-through. It’s a lonely thing, fighting for a book one loves and everyone else seems to hate. Rather brings one to a crisis of confidence, and yet fortunately (or unfortunately, can’t tell yet) my spite is stubborn and deep. I’m going to bring this story to fruition no matter what. It may be a mistake…but it’s mine to make, and sometimes one must cherish one’s error as much as one’s correctness. Oh, and it’s Tuesday so there’s probably a Q&A livestream to do as well.
Best to get started. I need brekkie, Boxnoggin needs his walkies, and perhaps I’ll take a dish of cream and have a chat with the pixie.
Just to be sure.